Sunday, March 30, 2008

Multiple Sclerosis

I have it. MS. I wasn't going to bring it up, but it has recently added some new complications to my life and my overall health. Don't worry, I will try not to bore you with the details. I just wanted to be able to "say" it here where there are no sad expressions, no uncomfortable moments when friends don't know what to say, no pep talks about faith and thinking only on the good things.

I have tremendous faith. I believe in healing. I ask for healing. I have experienced healing in my life. But for this moment, and for the past couple of months, I have lost ground with this particular obstacle in my life. This is not a "pity party" post! I'm just stating what is... not what will be. I fully hope to wake up tomorrow and find my eyes are again seeing as they should, my hearing has returned to it's former level, my internal functions are once again on track, my thoughts and speech are clear, and the spasticity in my legs and back have decided to disappear.

Just typing it out is a form of release. I don't know what tomorrow holds for me, but my faith tells me that all is in God's hands. He doesn't leave me carrying this burden alone, in fact, He carries it for me. All I have to do is to call on Him, to let Him give me peace in the midst of it all.

We all have storms in our lives of one kind or another. How we weather those storms is up to each one of us. While I am in the midst of this most recent storm, I may lose my balance or turn my words around, but be patient with me. I am a work in progress, and I am continually learning and growing in faith. I am thankful for my family and friends, with their constant prayers and uplifting words. I know I am not in this alone. God's mercy and grace are sufficient.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I totally enjoyed reading this. It's great that you are working on you writing and it is fun to read. I look forward to reading more. Luv you!!

Jojo said...

Hey "BF"! Thanks for stopping by! Luv you too!