Friday, November 14, 2008

Sunday Scribblings - Change

This was written on November 8, for the Sunday Scribblings prompt "Change". I had to put it on the back burner until now, so there are some posts that I wrote after this one. I hope you'll scroll on down and check them out...

I need change. After months of dealing with new MS issues, it was beginning to get to me. I dropped by my church this morning to deliver food for the members of Laurie Roberts band and the volunteer workers. I decided to pop into the sanctuary to hear them practice for the evening concert. I didn't know if I would be up to attending.

As I sat there listening, I found the songs touching me in a new way. During a break, Laurie brought her friends, Pastor LaShund and Kadesha Lambert, back to meet me. When she told them that I had MS, they said "Let's pray right now". I felt such a change pouring through me as the three of them began to pray. No, I did not experience an immediate physical healing. I had a spirit healing.

I try to keep from being negative about everything that MS has done to my life, but the truth is... some days are just so hard. It's like taking two steps forward and four back. As I stood letting their prayers roll over me, I regained some of my spiritual strength.

This week, I found a website that spoke to me. It's written by a lady with Lupus. There are so many familiarities with MS symptoms. It's here: But You Don't Look Sick... The Spoon Theory . Some days I just run "out of spoons"... you'll have to go read about it to understand what I mean by that.

After Laurie, LaShund and Kadesha prayed with me and for me, I knew I wanted to be able to come back for the concert at 7 PM. I went home and slept for over two hours. I was saving spoons... I knew I would need them if I was going to attend. I'm so glad I did! The concert was so uplifting. It was more than a performance. It was a time of worship... a time of blessing.

The change I felt was worth more than the spoons I reserved. I might have used them to clean my house, do some blogging, or run errands. I'm thankful I saved them for a time of spiritual enrichment. I am thankful for the spiritual healing. New strength to carry on. Courage for the challenges. Renewed belief in the awesome power of prayer in my life.


Donna said...

I'm so glad to hear that you stopped by the church and had a group pray with you, lifting your spirit! The spoon theory is a great way to explain how it is to be constantly sick and how the weariness can take hold of you.

Going forward - that's all that each of us can do, with as much dignity and grace as we can. I'll be saying a prayer for you tonight!

Silver Valley Girl said...

What a beautiful post, and I'm glad you were strengthened by the prayers and the worship at the concert. It is so good to see you back blogging. I had missed your posts. Sorry about the cats...I know that is hard. And, in case I miss it on the day, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Wish you could be here this weekend to celebrate!!!
But I'm sending TONS of birthday blessings your way.

Pam Warden Art said...

Oh, Happy Birthday. You are in my prayers and very, very special to me. Can I have your address, email it to me, I have something I'd like to send you for your birthday.
Love you Nita Jo,