It has been a long, cold December, filled with many joyful moments and a few sad ones.
I will be attending the memorial of a friend, in a couple days, who was only in his 50's. I'm sad for his entire family, but especially for his mother. It never seems right for a child to pass before a parent. Other friends said goodbye to their mother just recently, and I understand that loss as well. While we may have peace, it's still so hard to say farewell to people we love.
In a year filled with the of the loss of so many, celebrities as well as personal, today's news still came as a shock. Carrie Fisher, gone much too soon. I was such a fan, beginning with Star Wars, but my favorite role of hers was as Marie, Sally's friend, in When Harry Met Sally. I watched a couple interviews about her newest book, just within the past few weeks. I'm sure many fans around the world are grieving her loss, but a light like hers can never be dimmed. Heaven is a brighter place today, with all the beautiful souls who have left us this year.
All of this has increased my appreciation for each day I've been given. My only resolution for the New Year is to enjoy the moments, big and little, while I'm still able to! Wishing each of you Peace and Joy!
© 27DEC2016 ajj
Tuesday, December 27, 2016
Tuesday, December 6, 2016
Snow...
I woke this morning to find a light dusting of snow outside. Not enough to play in, but it's pretty! I've been watching Christmas movies for the past few days. Yesterday, the first Christmas card of the season arrived in the mail. What a lovely surprise! I haven't even started my cards yet. Yes, I'm procrastinating as usual. I could be writing them out now, but I had the urge to visit a couple blogs instead.
All Creatures Great and Small is playing on the television. It's a favorite of mine! I love the scenes of the English countryside, the animals, the stories. It's a gentle step back in time. I made myself a homestyle caramel latte with Folgers coffee, 2 teaspoons of caramel syrup, and a splash of Half and Half. A bit indulgent, but so tasty on a cold day.
With all that is going on in the world, and even in the lives of some people I know, I am feeling thankful for my family and my friends. I don't want to take any of it for granted. Each day we are given is a blessing! Wishing you joyful days!
All Creatures Great and Small is playing on the television. It's a favorite of mine! I love the scenes of the English countryside, the animals, the stories. It's a gentle step back in time. I made myself a homestyle caramel latte with Folgers coffee, 2 teaspoons of caramel syrup, and a splash of Half and Half. A bit indulgent, but so tasty on a cold day.
With all that is going on in the world, and even in the lives of some people I know, I am feeling thankful for my family and my friends. I don't want to take any of it for granted. Each day we are given is a blessing! Wishing you joyful days!
Thursday, December 1, 2016
Playing...
I wanted to make a change to the look of my blog, so I'm experimenting with the available options. I was looking for something that said "December" to me, but the first one was pretty flashy, so it didn't stay for long. Now I'm playing with blues and greys, which seem appropriate for the coming of winter weather.
Well, I have a full day planned, so I'll try to check back in tomorrow!
Well, I have a full day planned, so I'll try to check back in tomorrow!
Wednesday, November 23, 2016
Wishing You Joy...
On this eve before Thanksgiving, I'm filled with reflection. Memories of holidays gone by and the people who have been a part of my life. Sometimes, in the craziness of life, I forget how blessed I have been.
Tomorrow will be a very quiet day at my home, with family scattered across the country, some traveling, some working. I've already decided to enjoy the day with my husband and youngest son, who will both be here, our oldest has to work the holiday. It's going to be a laid back, stress free, lounge around in your jammies kind of day. For the meal, I'm just cooking turkey breast, sweet potatoes, stuffing (the boxed cornbread style), and a vegetable. My husband is making pumpkin pie tonight, which is his specialty. No fancy salads, side dishes, or appetizers needed, just good, humble food.
One of my favorite things to do on Thanksgiving is to watch the Macy's Parade and The National Dog Show. Yes, really! After that, perhaps a holiday movie or a rousing game of Dominoes. My husband is thinking about stringing the Christmas lights on the house, or at least check for needed replacements. It will be just a quiet day here in small town USA. Wishing you all a lovely Thanksgiving! May it be exactly what you're hoping for!
Tomorrow will be a very quiet day at my home, with family scattered across the country, some traveling, some working. I've already decided to enjoy the day with my husband and youngest son, who will both be here, our oldest has to work the holiday. It's going to be a laid back, stress free, lounge around in your jammies kind of day. For the meal, I'm just cooking turkey breast, sweet potatoes, stuffing (the boxed cornbread style), and a vegetable. My husband is making pumpkin pie tonight, which is his specialty. No fancy salads, side dishes, or appetizers needed, just good, humble food.
One of my favorite things to do on Thanksgiving is to watch the Macy's Parade and The National Dog Show. Yes, really! After that, perhaps a holiday movie or a rousing game of Dominoes. My husband is thinking about stringing the Christmas lights on the house, or at least check for needed replacements. It will be just a quiet day here in small town USA. Wishing you all a lovely Thanksgiving! May it be exactly what you're hoping for!
Saturday, November 19, 2016
It's Nearly Here...
October slipped away, and we're well into November, with Thanksgiving just a few days away and Christmas coming quickly after. One of the many things I'm thankful for, this campaign season is over. It has been one of the ugliest in my memory. I'm praying some good will follow. I don't want to really get into politics, so I will leave it at that.
November brought a visit from my sister in law, which was so nice. She helped her big brother prep his 52 Chevy for a new engine. We all went out for a lovely breakfast and visit. It was a little place called Moe Joe's, and their special was Pumpkin Bread French Toast with Candied Pecans, served with an Apple Cider Syrup. Oh my gosh! It was so good. I didn't think to take a photo, but you can imagine. It was glorious! The coffee was excellent too! The highlight was being able to share it with my husband and his little sis.
Today my thoughts were on Thanksgiving and Christmas. With everyone on different schedules, Thanksgiving Day will be very quiet this year. Just my husband and one of my sons. I'll be spending Black Friday with several of the "girls" in my family, both young and older. It should be a lot of fun! Saturday the Christmas decorating boxes will be coming out. Christmas cards lists will be checked and labels printed. Now it's time to visit a few of your blogs, and see if anyone else is looking forward to the holidays!
November brought a visit from my sister in law, which was so nice. She helped her big brother prep his 52 Chevy for a new engine. We all went out for a lovely breakfast and visit. It was a little place called Moe Joe's, and their special was Pumpkin Bread French Toast with Candied Pecans, served with an Apple Cider Syrup. Oh my gosh! It was so good. I didn't think to take a photo, but you can imagine. It was glorious! The coffee was excellent too! The highlight was being able to share it with my husband and his little sis.
Today my thoughts were on Thanksgiving and Christmas. With everyone on different schedules, Thanksgiving Day will be very quiet this year. Just my husband and one of my sons. I'll be spending Black Friday with several of the "girls" in my family, both young and older. It should be a lot of fun! Saturday the Christmas decorating boxes will be coming out. Christmas cards lists will be checked and labels printed. Now it's time to visit a few of your blogs, and see if anyone else is looking forward to the holidays!
Friday, October 28, 2016
What A Month...
October has raced by! I spent a good deal of time scanning letters, newspaper clippings, and photos for my ancestry project. In an old family bible, I found several obituaries and articles from the late 1800's and early 1900's, which gave me a lot of new family information. There was also a long letter written about my grandmother's passing in the late 50's. It was so descriptive of some of the other family members, including their perceived quirks, it had me laughing out loud!
We're Cubs fans at my home, so I've been watching a lot of baseball. I have high hopes they will take the World Series! I'm also following BSU football. They're having a very good season as well.
I've been enjoying books and magazines again! I'm currently finishing The Little Bookstore of Big Stone Gap. It's a great read about a couple who open a used bookstore and everything they learn along the way. As someone who used to dream of owning my own bookstore, I'm finding it really interesting. The next book I'll be reading is a cozy Agatha Raisin mystery, Pushing up the Daisies.
That's what's happening in my world. Now I'm off to see what's happening in yours!
© 28Oct2016 ajj
We're Cubs fans at my home, so I've been watching a lot of baseball. I have high hopes they will take the World Series! I'm also following BSU football. They're having a very good season as well.
I've been enjoying books and magazines again! I'm currently finishing The Little Bookstore of Big Stone Gap. It's a great read about a couple who open a used bookstore and everything they learn along the way. As someone who used to dream of owning my own bookstore, I'm finding it really interesting. The next book I'll be reading is a cozy Agatha Raisin mystery, Pushing up the Daisies.
That's what's happening in my world. Now I'm off to see what's happening in yours!
© 28Oct2016 ajj
Friday, September 30, 2016
Friday Afternoon Thoughts...
I know, I know, I just posted in the wee hours of the morning. I'm on a roll I guess, sitting here in my front room, listening to the Doobie Brothers, and feeling so fine!
I have been sorting through the hundreds of photos on my computer. Some long forgotten gems have been hiding right here in folders. Blog gifts, family photos, art projects, etc. My head is filled with all kinds of projects and ideas! Oh, what a lovely day it's turned out to be! Here's an image to enjoy, as we head out of September and October is ushered in!
© 30Sep2016 ajj
I have been sorting through the hundreds of photos on my computer. Some long forgotten gems have been hiding right here in folders. Blog gifts, family photos, art projects, etc. My head is filled with all kinds of projects and ideas! Oh, what a lovely day it's turned out to be! Here's an image to enjoy, as we head out of September and October is ushered in!
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| This was a free image gift from The Graphics Fairy a few years ago. Enjoy! |
When Things Go Wrong...
This has been one of those weeks. It seems what could go wrong, did.
I wasn't up to participating in last weekends yard sale, and now with September at an end, it will have to wait till spring.
My printer sputtered and died. I tried all my various tricks and techniques, which had worked in the past, but nothing helped.
The old 52 Chevy, my husband loves so well, took it's final gasp. It will need a rebuild or replacement engine. The one he dropped into it last year has failed him.
My niece fell from the 4th floor fire escape of her NY apartment. Thankfully, she landed on the edge of the 3rd floor fire escape and was able to hang on till her friend got to her. She's very banged up with bad scrapes and bruises, had to miss some work, but so grateful to have survived!
You know the old saying, when it rains, it pours. That can apply equally to good things and bad. Well, I'm expecting some good, cleansing rain! I shared this thought on social media yesterday: I'm not dismayed or even anxious, which is my normal response. I feel like a good wind of change is coming our way.
Putting that positive thought out there has already reaped benefits. The $2800.00 car repair looks like it will cost less than a third of that amount! Printers are on sale right now, and we have a bit extra because of my husband's unexpected overtime hours. Positive things are happening for both sons! Perhaps I'll just donate most of the items I had set aside for the yard sale, and keep that "cleansing rain" going strong!
Well, those are my thoughts tonight. It's getting late. Time to get some rest!
© 30Sep2016 ajj
I wasn't up to participating in last weekends yard sale, and now with September at an end, it will have to wait till spring.
My printer sputtered and died. I tried all my various tricks and techniques, which had worked in the past, but nothing helped.
The old 52 Chevy, my husband loves so well, took it's final gasp. It will need a rebuild or replacement engine. The one he dropped into it last year has failed him.
My niece fell from the 4th floor fire escape of her NY apartment. Thankfully, she landed on the edge of the 3rd floor fire escape and was able to hang on till her friend got to her. She's very banged up with bad scrapes and bruises, had to miss some work, but so grateful to have survived!
You know the old saying, when it rains, it pours. That can apply equally to good things and bad. Well, I'm expecting some good, cleansing rain! I shared this thought on social media yesterday: I'm not dismayed or even anxious, which is my normal response. I feel like a good wind of change is coming our way.
Putting that positive thought out there has already reaped benefits. The $2800.00 car repair looks like it will cost less than a third of that amount! Printers are on sale right now, and we have a bit extra because of my husband's unexpected overtime hours. Positive things are happening for both sons! Perhaps I'll just donate most of the items I had set aside for the yard sale, and keep that "cleansing rain" going strong!
Well, those are my thoughts tonight. It's getting late. Time to get some rest!
© 30Sep2016 ajj
Friday, September 23, 2016
Autumn Arrived with Rain...
My favorite season arrived yesterday, and it came with rain! I love rain! It calls for some warm soup and crusty, buttered bread, hot coffee, and books read in cushy chairs.
I also have a feeling of sad nostalgia for things long forgotten. People who are now only shadows in memory. Music I used to love. Songs I used to sing, welling up from somewhere deep inside. That old mama cat I loved so well, who disappeared one summer never to be seen again, and Spooky dog with your sweet, sad eyes. That little friend who told ghost stories in the night, and the little boy who drowned in Indian Creek one summer day. Hiding in books, so many books. Stories of adventure removing me from my realities. Playing the piano, letting my fingers search and find the mournful notes, the minor chords, healing my broken heart as the sad notes rose up and away.
Life is funny. Our hearts are often a mystery waiting to be solved. We journey on and suddenly, we are there, in the autumn days, and they are sad, and they are strange, but also beautiful. It's a season to revel in, to enjoy. May it be a long season filled with both memory and discovery.
© 23Sep2016 ajj
I also have a feeling of sad nostalgia for things long forgotten. People who are now only shadows in memory. Music I used to love. Songs I used to sing, welling up from somewhere deep inside. That old mama cat I loved so well, who disappeared one summer never to be seen again, and Spooky dog with your sweet, sad eyes. That little friend who told ghost stories in the night, and the little boy who drowned in Indian Creek one summer day. Hiding in books, so many books. Stories of adventure removing me from my realities. Playing the piano, letting my fingers search and find the mournful notes, the minor chords, healing my broken heart as the sad notes rose up and away.
Life is funny. Our hearts are often a mystery waiting to be solved. We journey on and suddenly, we are there, in the autumn days, and they are sad, and they are strange, but also beautiful. It's a season to revel in, to enjoy. May it be a long season filled with both memory and discovery.
© 23Sep2016 ajj
Friday, September 9, 2016
Voices...
I'm sitting here with my coffee and reflecting on the voices I've been hearing. Yes, they're all in my head! Characters talking, stories begging to be told, imagination running amok! The one thing I didn't spend enough time on over the summer was my writing. Intentions were high, but motivation was at an all time low. I spent a lot of time visiting with my sons, watching Formula One racing on the weekends (a new obsession of mine), sorting through boxes of keepsakes and old photos (I have hundreds), chatting on the phone with friends, sipping coffee, napping, reading... almost anything but writing!
I intended to blog at least once a week. I intended to work on my book. I intended to completely organize and redecorate my home. What is it they say about good intentions? Never mind...
Today is a beautiful September day! Time for a fresh start as we head into autumn! Have I told you this is my favorite time of year? Of course I have! It always feels like a time of beginnings to me. Though I'm in, what many might define as, the autumn years of life, it seems appropriate for me to look at this as a time of beginning. I will get serious about my writing. I will read more and take better care of myself. Three things. I can start with three things!
You're wondering why this feels like a time of beginnings to me? I think it has to do with school. New pencils, crayons, paper. New classmates and teachers. Then there were the school clothes and shoes! All new! A clean slate! So we would begin again.
Well, enough for today! The voices are telling me to move on to my other writing. I promise I'll return soon, with more of my ramblings! Joy to each of you!
© 09Sep2016 ajj
I intended to blog at least once a week. I intended to work on my book. I intended to completely organize and redecorate my home. What is it they say about good intentions? Never mind...
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Today is a beautiful September day! Time for a fresh start as we head into autumn! Have I told you this is my favorite time of year? Of course I have! It always feels like a time of beginnings to me. Though I'm in, what many might define as, the autumn years of life, it seems appropriate for me to look at this as a time of beginning. I will get serious about my writing. I will read more and take better care of myself. Three things. I can start with three things!
You're wondering why this feels like a time of beginnings to me? I think it has to do with school. New pencils, crayons, paper. New classmates and teachers. Then there were the school clothes and shoes! All new! A clean slate! So we would begin again.
Well, enough for today! The voices are telling me to move on to my other writing. I promise I'll return soon, with more of my ramblings! Joy to each of you!
© 09Sep2016 ajj
Monday, August 8, 2016
Thoughts...
I was reading a note on Facebook posted by Marion Chesney aka M. C. Beaton this morning. She talked of the dog days of summer, people gone on holiday and the kind of holiday she dreams of, the "good old days" versus today's world.
"I never dream of beach holidays... I like holidays in cities with theatres and opera houses and old buildings. I like sitting on boulevards and watching the world go by... The cafes are no longer smart and not even cheap to make up for it. The shops are chain shops. But otherwise I do not long for the so-called good old days... So many bad things have been eased out. And so many bad things are now with us. I have friends who find the present world situation frightening. All one can do, I suppose, is to make life as pleasant as possible for as many in ones immediate environment and hope some of the ripples spread out across the murky pond." ~ Marion Chesney
I left this comment:
"This piece stuck a chord with me. I don't dream of beaches, other than to walk one in the cool morning, when not many are around. I love people, but love solitude perhaps even more. I have fond memories of earlier days, but no desire to go back. My dreams now are much the same as they've always been. Wishes for a peaceful world, a stable income, good health, a place to call home, surrounded by people I love... those are the things I wish for everyone."
Looking back and treasuring happy memories is good therapy for the soul, as long as we don't forget to live in the present. That said, this day is especially poignant for me. It's the 16th anniversary of my brother's passing. There's sorrow in this memory, and I relive it every year on this date.
We can't go back, and most of the time we wouldn't want to. The moments I love to remember, and might wish to revisit, are the happy times. Days of laughter, singing together, Christmases, birthdays, trips to Lucky Peak or Robie Creek for picnics and swimming, perusing second hand and antique stores, sitting in the back yard with a Coke and the radio playing some tunes, the smiles, the hugs.
The lesson is to treasure the moments as they come. The magic of my everyday life. The simple joys and pleasures. There is no guarantee of anything other than this very moment. When I look back at my life, the sad and the beautiful moments, it's the beauty which stands out the strongest. I write about the pain, because it helps to dilute it. In reflecting on my memories, it's the beauty which overrides the pain, and there has been so much beauty! So much joy! So many things to smile about and to be thankful for!
Wishing you days filled with Joy!
© 08Aug2016 ajj
"I never dream of beach holidays... I like holidays in cities with theatres and opera houses and old buildings. I like sitting on boulevards and watching the world go by... The cafes are no longer smart and not even cheap to make up for it. The shops are chain shops. But otherwise I do not long for the so-called good old days... So many bad things have been eased out. And so many bad things are now with us. I have friends who find the present world situation frightening. All one can do, I suppose, is to make life as pleasant as possible for as many in ones immediate environment and hope some of the ripples spread out across the murky pond." ~ Marion Chesney
I left this comment:
"This piece stuck a chord with me. I don't dream of beaches, other than to walk one in the cool morning, when not many are around. I love people, but love solitude perhaps even more. I have fond memories of earlier days, but no desire to go back. My dreams now are much the same as they've always been. Wishes for a peaceful world, a stable income, good health, a place to call home, surrounded by people I love... those are the things I wish for everyone."
Looking back and treasuring happy memories is good therapy for the soul, as long as we don't forget to live in the present. That said, this day is especially poignant for me. It's the 16th anniversary of my brother's passing. There's sorrow in this memory, and I relive it every year on this date.
We can't go back, and most of the time we wouldn't want to. The moments I love to remember, and might wish to revisit, are the happy times. Days of laughter, singing together, Christmases, birthdays, trips to Lucky Peak or Robie Creek for picnics and swimming, perusing second hand and antique stores, sitting in the back yard with a Coke and the radio playing some tunes, the smiles, the hugs.
The lesson is to treasure the moments as they come. The magic of my everyday life. The simple joys and pleasures. There is no guarantee of anything other than this very moment. When I look back at my life, the sad and the beautiful moments, it's the beauty which stands out the strongest. I write about the pain, because it helps to dilute it. In reflecting on my memories, it's the beauty which overrides the pain, and there has been so much beauty! So much joy! So many things to smile about and to be thankful for!
Wishing you days filled with Joy!
© 08Aug2016 ajj
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
While I Wasn't Looking...
August arrived! What happened to July? I've been busy with this and that, and suddenly summer is more than halfway over. The month was filled with reading, visiting with my sons, trying to follow the insanity of politics, too much Facebook time, a couple "real time" visits with friends, long conversations over the telephone with people I love...
The best thing about it, I've been enjoying this summer! As usual, I've avoided getting out on the really hot days, but we've had some mild weather. Tomorrow it will be back down in the 80's again! Love that!
I decided to start selling some bits and pieces on eBay. So far, not so profitable. The shipping costs are so high, and there are multiples of the kind of items I'm selling. Years ago, I could make some pretty nice spending money this way, but that has changed. I'm going to need to reevaluate and see if there's a better way to sell.
The one thing I haven't done much of is writing, other than a few blog posts. I still have stories swirling in my head, but I just can't seem to get them written down. I guess they're not done percolating yet.
Speaking of percolating, it's time for a cup of coffee and the news... or maybe a fun Netflix program instead, but coffee for sure!
© 02Aug2016 ajj
The best thing about it, I've been enjoying this summer! As usual, I've avoided getting out on the really hot days, but we've had some mild weather. Tomorrow it will be back down in the 80's again! Love that!
I decided to start selling some bits and pieces on eBay. So far, not so profitable. The shipping costs are so high, and there are multiples of the kind of items I'm selling. Years ago, I could make some pretty nice spending money this way, but that has changed. I'm going to need to reevaluate and see if there's a better way to sell.
The one thing I haven't done much of is writing, other than a few blog posts. I still have stories swirling in my head, but I just can't seem to get them written down. I guess they're not done percolating yet.
Speaking of percolating, it's time for a cup of coffee and the news... or maybe a fun Netflix program instead, but coffee for sure!
© 02Aug2016 ajj
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
Chapters...
I saw this quote on Facebook today...
"Everyone has a chapter they don't want to read out loud..."
(It was attributed to Toby Mac, but the internet is filled with misquotes so I'm not 100% certain)
It got me thinking. I have some of those chapters. Maybe I don't want to read them out loud, but more and more I want to write it all down. Every chapter, every paragraph of my life was part of creating the person you know today. Pain as well as joy. Created by God, but shaped and formed by what I experienced in this world. Yes, He's there to help, but he doesn't always shield us from the blows, the cruelty, the abuse.
We walk through life and all it's experiences. Our hope is in knowing we are always loved by our Creator. He knows our pain. He knows we grow from our experiences, so He does not keep us in safe, controlled hot houses. Some flourish, no matter what they are put through. Some are destroyed, unable to understand why He left them hanging. Perhaps I am somewhere in the middle, not destroyed but not always victorious. I'm human. I fail. I hurt. I rejoice. I overcome. I'm alive. I am His in all my chapters, in all my various hues.
© 27Jul2016 ajj
"Everyone has a chapter they don't want to read out loud..."
(It was attributed to Toby Mac, but the internet is filled with misquotes so I'm not 100% certain)
It got me thinking. I have some of those chapters. Maybe I don't want to read them out loud, but more and more I want to write it all down. Every chapter, every paragraph of my life was part of creating the person you know today. Pain as well as joy. Created by God, but shaped and formed by what I experienced in this world. Yes, He's there to help, but he doesn't always shield us from the blows, the cruelty, the abuse.
We walk through life and all it's experiences. Our hope is in knowing we are always loved by our Creator. He knows our pain. He knows we grow from our experiences, so He does not keep us in safe, controlled hot houses. Some flourish, no matter what they are put through. Some are destroyed, unable to understand why He left them hanging. Perhaps I am somewhere in the middle, not destroyed but not always victorious. I'm human. I fail. I hurt. I rejoice. I overcome. I'm alive. I am His in all my chapters, in all my various hues.
© 27Jul2016 ajj
Tuesday, July 19, 2016
Special Little Snowflake...
Am I a special or unique...
Or just simply a...
Snowflake or flake, read on and decide for yourself!
The BlogHer Prompt for today:
"Do you get nervous in social situations? How do you power through that anxiety?
Hmmm, how to answer that? I definitely have a high level of social anxiety. The results vary from butterflies in my stomach to outright sickness. Clammy hands, sweaty brow, dry mouth, etc. More than once, I've had to excuse myself because I got so ill. This usually happens once I'm at a social gathering or event, but I've also had it happen while preparing to attend the event. This has occurred for things I love, like baby and bridal showers, weddings, family parties, concerts, church services, trips, etc. This has increased in intensity over the years.
I don't always power through, which can have a huge impact on my relationships. I find it easier to deal with the feelings of nausea, or outright sickness, in the security of my own home. People don't always understand why they receive a last minute cancellation from me, or why I leave shortly after arriving. The times I have powered through were usually much more enjoyable and rewarding than I imagined they could be. When the anxiety begins to wash over me, I try deep breathing, sitting quietly for a moment, saying a prayer, and visualizing a positive experience. Often, if I can get past the initial wave of terror, I find the demons quiet down and I'm able to enjoy the event, though this isn't always true.
It's frustrating to be so affected by social situations. I'd love to figure out what my "trigger button" is and then to disable it. As my oldest son often tells me, "You're a special little snowflake" and that I am! Maybe not so special or unique, but some kind of a flake for certain!
© 19Jul2016 ajj
snow·flake
ˈsnōˌflāk/
noun
- 1.a flake of snow, especially a feathery ice crystal, typically displaying delicate sixfold symmetry.
- 2.a white-flowered Eurasian plant related to and resembling the snowdrop, typically blooming in the summer or autumn.
Or just simply a...
flake
flāk/
noun
- 1.a small, flat, thin piece of something, typically one that has broken away or been peeled off from a larger piece.
- 2.NORTH AMERICANinformala crazy or eccentric person.
synonyms: ditz, space cadet, airhead, fool, scatterbrain.
"Geoff can be such a flake."
Snowflake or flake, read on and decide for yourself!
The BlogHer Prompt for today:
"Do you get nervous in social situations? How do you power through that anxiety?
Hmmm, how to answer that? I definitely have a high level of social anxiety. The results vary from butterflies in my stomach to outright sickness. Clammy hands, sweaty brow, dry mouth, etc. More than once, I've had to excuse myself because I got so ill. This usually happens once I'm at a social gathering or event, but I've also had it happen while preparing to attend the event. This has occurred for things I love, like baby and bridal showers, weddings, family parties, concerts, church services, trips, etc. This has increased in intensity over the years.
I don't always power through, which can have a huge impact on my relationships. I find it easier to deal with the feelings of nausea, or outright sickness, in the security of my own home. People don't always understand why they receive a last minute cancellation from me, or why I leave shortly after arriving. The times I have powered through were usually much more enjoyable and rewarding than I imagined they could be. When the anxiety begins to wash over me, I try deep breathing, sitting quietly for a moment, saying a prayer, and visualizing a positive experience. Often, if I can get past the initial wave of terror, I find the demons quiet down and I'm able to enjoy the event, though this isn't always true.
It's frustrating to be so affected by social situations. I'd love to figure out what my "trigger button" is and then to disable it. As my oldest son often tells me, "You're a special little snowflake" and that I am! Maybe not so special or unique, but some kind of a flake for certain!
© 19Jul2016 ajj
Monday, July 18, 2016
New People...
The BlogHer Prompt for today:
"Do you like meeting new people, or do you prefer to hangout with people you already know?"
This is a tough one for me. Although I enjoy meeting new people, I always have a bit of social anxiety about it. I'm also very reluctant to integrate new people into my world. I suppose it is a result of being burned a few times in the past.
I'm the person who can chat with strangers in the supermarket, the park, a restaurant, etc., but who freezes up when being introduced to a new person at church or in the neighborhood. What is that? I know I worry about what to say, but I often end up rambling nonsensically about anything and everything, all the while wondering if they like me. I have to work at focusing on them, on what they are interested in, and less about what they are thinking of me. I'm somehow always trying to fit in, instead of realizing I do have something to offer in the way of friendship. Once I can relax and let go of my insecurities, I nearly always end up enjoying the company of someone new.
At the core, I will always prefer to hangout with people I already know. Friends and family. My comfort zone. I already know what the expectations are. These people have seen my flaws and failings, and have stayed in my life anyway! They're part of my framework, my foundation, my society. It doesn't mean I don't make room for new friends, I'm just very selective, even cautious, about who I open up to.
The irony of this, is how comfortable I am with blogging, knowing strangers may be reading my words and judging them. I always hope what I write will resonate with others, either striking a common cord or introducing a new way of looking at something, but I don't have the same reticence as I do in meeting people face to face.
Learning to set my insecurities aside is a continuing process. I am getting better at it, but may never be completely free from those feelings, and I'm ok with that.
© 18Jul2016 ajj
"Do you like meeting new people, or do you prefer to hangout with people you already know?"
This is a tough one for me. Although I enjoy meeting new people, I always have a bit of social anxiety about it. I'm also very reluctant to integrate new people into my world. I suppose it is a result of being burned a few times in the past.
I'm the person who can chat with strangers in the supermarket, the park, a restaurant, etc., but who freezes up when being introduced to a new person at church or in the neighborhood. What is that? I know I worry about what to say, but I often end up rambling nonsensically about anything and everything, all the while wondering if they like me. I have to work at focusing on them, on what they are interested in, and less about what they are thinking of me. I'm somehow always trying to fit in, instead of realizing I do have something to offer in the way of friendship. Once I can relax and let go of my insecurities, I nearly always end up enjoying the company of someone new.
At the core, I will always prefer to hangout with people I already know. Friends and family. My comfort zone. I already know what the expectations are. These people have seen my flaws and failings, and have stayed in my life anyway! They're part of my framework, my foundation, my society. It doesn't mean I don't make room for new friends, I'm just very selective, even cautious, about who I open up to.
The irony of this, is how comfortable I am with blogging, knowing strangers may be reading my words and judging them. I always hope what I write will resonate with others, either striking a common cord or introducing a new way of looking at something, but I don't have the same reticence as I do in meeting people face to face.
Learning to set my insecurities aside is a continuing process. I am getting better at it, but may never be completely free from those feelings, and I'm ok with that.
© 18Jul2016 ajj
Saturday, July 9, 2016
Catching Up on Prompts...
With the holiday weekend, I got busy and didn't get back to the BlogHer writing prompts. I looked them over this morning and several didn't apply to me, so I'm combining them into this post.
I still read the first blog I began with, Silver Valley Stories. Carol introduced me to blogging and a community of other writers. I read several blogs before finally deciding to start mine.
I can't remember who I first emailed with, after we met through blogging. It was very likely Pam Warden of Pam Warden Art, Donna of Made in Heaven or Donna of Cottage Days and Journeys. I do know I've made some wonderful friends along the way.
It's always flattering when someone mentions me in their writing. My friend Carol wrote a very sweet piece about our friendship a couple years ago, Kindred Spirits. We've had a unique and special friendship, and I treasure it!
I can't close this post without mentioning the heartbreak going on in our nation. Praying for all who have lost loved ones. Praying for peace.
© 09Jul2016 ajj
I still read the first blog I began with, Silver Valley Stories. Carol introduced me to blogging and a community of other writers. I read several blogs before finally deciding to start mine.
I can't remember who I first emailed with, after we met through blogging. It was very likely Pam Warden of Pam Warden Art, Donna of Made in Heaven or Donna of Cottage Days and Journeys. I do know I've made some wonderful friends along the way.
It's always flattering when someone mentions me in their writing. My friend Carol wrote a very sweet piece about our friendship a couple years ago, Kindred Spirits. We've had a unique and special friendship, and I treasure it!
I can't close this post without mentioning the heartbreak going on in our nation. Praying for all who have lost loved ones. Praying for peace.
© 09Jul2016 ajj
Friday, July 1, 2016
Writing Prompts and Blogging...
I decided to try using the July Writing Prompts posted on BlogHer (just click on the name to see the prompts for yourself). The prompt for today is:
What was the first blog you read online?
That would be Silver Valley Stories, written by my dear friend, Carol Roberts. In fact, Carol is the person who suggested I begin writing a blog. She knew I had a love of words and writing, and thought it would be a great outlet for me to practice my skills. How right she was! Blogging has been a wonderful release for my creativity, my love for sharing family stories, and so much more! It opened a world to me, filled with like-minded, creative individuals. Through blogging, I've met people from all across the country and as far away as Australia and Europe. Some have even become close friends. I've learned, been entertained, and I've seen the world through different eyes. Blogging has definitely been a rewarding experience for me!
What was the first blog you read online?
That would be Silver Valley Stories, written by my dear friend, Carol Roberts. In fact, Carol is the person who suggested I begin writing a blog. She knew I had a love of words and writing, and thought it would be a great outlet for me to practice my skills. How right she was! Blogging has been a wonderful release for my creativity, my love for sharing family stories, and so much more! It opened a world to me, filled with like-minded, creative individuals. Through blogging, I've met people from all across the country and as far away as Australia and Europe. Some have even become close friends. I've learned, been entertained, and I've seen the world through different eyes. Blogging has definitely been a rewarding experience for me!
Saturday, June 11, 2016
Random thoughts...
Gooseberries - Looks like we've got a pretty big crop this season. Already prepped and froze enough for three pies, and there are more to be picked.
Ducks - Just when we got our front garden back, saying goodbye to the nesting mama duck and her little ones, another mama moved in. I love the ducks, but because we don't want to disturb her, our front garden has become terribly overgrown. All the rain we got didn't help with that. I'll be glad when her little family has hatched and moved on to the canal down the road.
Health - Still having a few battles with some tests scheduled for the end of the month. Feeling pretty well, all things considered.
Books - I've been doing more reading and really enjoying it. Read the final book by Maeve Binchy. It was wonderful! Currently reading an "Agatha Christie" novel written by Sophie Hannah. I wasn't sure another author could capture Christie's characters, but so far I'm liking it. I'm only about halfway through, so I'll have to let you know my final verdict when I've finished it.
Well, that's it for today. I hope all is well in your world! Wishing you Peace!
Ducks - Just when we got our front garden back, saying goodbye to the nesting mama duck and her little ones, another mama moved in. I love the ducks, but because we don't want to disturb her, our front garden has become terribly overgrown. All the rain we got didn't help with that. I'll be glad when her little family has hatched and moved on to the canal down the road.
Health - Still having a few battles with some tests scheduled for the end of the month. Feeling pretty well, all things considered.
Books - I've been doing more reading and really enjoying it. Read the final book by Maeve Binchy. It was wonderful! Currently reading an "Agatha Christie" novel written by Sophie Hannah. I wasn't sure another author could capture Christie's characters, but so far I'm liking it. I'm only about halfway through, so I'll have to let you know my final verdict when I've finished it.
Well, that's it for today. I hope all is well in your world! Wishing you Peace!
Saturday, May 28, 2016
My Crazy Life...
This has been a long, crazy week. We rescued a runaway bunny, which was being attacked in our back yard by three mallards. Houdini is now safely back with his owner, a sweet little girl from the neighborhood. Apparently, he lives up to his name on a regular basis. He'll now be living in a rabbit hutch rather than roaming his back yard.
I had a quick trip to the emergency room, even got to take my first ambulance ride. It was not a heart attack, though it certainly felt bad enough to be one. Just another MS episode most likely. They took me off one med and put me on a different one. Just another minor bump in the road of my life.
On a completely random train of thought, it occurred to me I watch TV programs for more than one reason. I love dramas. While watching an episode of Rizzoli and Isles, I realized I wasn't just enjoying the story line, I was enjoying what the characters were wearing, how their apartments were furnished, and the look of certain city locations. In a really well done program, the personality of a character is further established by what they wear, what environment they live in and how their home is decorated. If I played a TV character, I'd be the eccentric, wild-haired hoarder dressed in t-shirts and blue jeans, with a wide variety of art and furniture styles. My show would be a family drama, where people make mistakes, but in the end they always love and support one another. It's a pretty good show! Don't forget to tune in again for another episode of my crazy life! :)
I had a quick trip to the emergency room, even got to take my first ambulance ride. It was not a heart attack, though it certainly felt bad enough to be one. Just another MS episode most likely. They took me off one med and put me on a different one. Just another minor bump in the road of my life.
On a completely random train of thought, it occurred to me I watch TV programs for more than one reason. I love dramas. While watching an episode of Rizzoli and Isles, I realized I wasn't just enjoying the story line, I was enjoying what the characters were wearing, how their apartments were furnished, and the look of certain city locations. In a really well done program, the personality of a character is further established by what they wear, what environment they live in and how their home is decorated. If I played a TV character, I'd be the eccentric, wild-haired hoarder dressed in t-shirts and blue jeans, with a wide variety of art and furniture styles. My show would be a family drama, where people make mistakes, but in the end they always love and support one another. It's a pretty good show! Don't forget to tune in again for another episode of my crazy life! :)
Sunday, May 22, 2016
Plans and Changes...
The one thing I can always count on is change. I never put too much trust in plans, because my experience has been they often fall through or at least pan out differently than expected.
Our youngest was set to graduate from college, then right at the beginning of finals a couple weeks ago, he took ill. Some kind of vengeful, viral flu. After trying to push through anyway, he finally had to take the recommendation of professors, counselor, and the nurse, and accept he could not finish. His first worry was, it was an automatic failure of those classes, but was greatly relieved to find out the professors chose to give him a postponement. Such good news! It looks like he'll be able to complete exams and final papers without having to return in the fall. Either way, I believe things work out the way they are meant to. It's just hard accepting it when you're in the middle of a major upset to your plans.
Learning to deal with the changes life brings, is an opportunity for growth. You learn to slow down, reassess, and move forward in a different direction. You become aware change does not mean defeat or failure, but rather another way of achieving your goals. Sounds great doesn't it? Now, I just need to remind myself of this when the next big change comes my way. One thing is certain, changes will always keep coming.
© 22May2016 ajj
Our youngest was set to graduate from college, then right at the beginning of finals a couple weeks ago, he took ill. Some kind of vengeful, viral flu. After trying to push through anyway, he finally had to take the recommendation of professors, counselor, and the nurse, and accept he could not finish. His first worry was, it was an automatic failure of those classes, but was greatly relieved to find out the professors chose to give him a postponement. Such good news! It looks like he'll be able to complete exams and final papers without having to return in the fall. Either way, I believe things work out the way they are meant to. It's just hard accepting it when you're in the middle of a major upset to your plans.
Learning to deal with the changes life brings, is an opportunity for growth. You learn to slow down, reassess, and move forward in a different direction. You become aware change does not mean defeat or failure, but rather another way of achieving your goals. Sounds great doesn't it? Now, I just need to remind myself of this when the next big change comes my way. One thing is certain, changes will always keep coming.
© 22May2016 ajj
Monday, May 2, 2016
May Has Arrived...
The weather has been a little more crazy than usual for this time of year, but I've been loving the sunny, colder weather, especially as I know the heat is on it's way.
At my house, Mz. Duck has moved on, with only three ducklings this year. Don't know why the rest didn't hatch, but that's nature for you. Flowers are in bloom, and I'm loving my columbines! So pretty! Our rhubarb has gone crazy! Last night while I worked on a project, my husband harvested, chopped, and filled freezer containers. There will be a lot of pie in our future!
The project I mentioned was creating, printing, and mailing graduation announcements for our youngest son. That special event is coming up very soon, and I had decided today was my mailing deadline. I got all but a few posted. It's a weight off my shoulders. Now I have to focus on the graduation party. It will be simple, as he prefers something small and intimate, where we just hangout, eat, converse, and perhaps play some games. He's never been much for big, noisy parties.
Life just keeps moving along, often faster than we imagined, bringing change. There is a bit of nostalgia for what we've left behind, but also a heightened anticipation for all the joys which lie ahead!
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| My Pretty Purple Columbines |
At my house, Mz. Duck has moved on, with only three ducklings this year. Don't know why the rest didn't hatch, but that's nature for you. Flowers are in bloom, and I'm loving my columbines! So pretty! Our rhubarb has gone crazy! Last night while I worked on a project, my husband harvested, chopped, and filled freezer containers. There will be a lot of pie in our future!
The project I mentioned was creating, printing, and mailing graduation announcements for our youngest son. That special event is coming up very soon, and I had decided today was my mailing deadline. I got all but a few posted. It's a weight off my shoulders. Now I have to focus on the graduation party. It will be simple, as he prefers something small and intimate, where we just hangout, eat, converse, and perhaps play some games. He's never been much for big, noisy parties.
Life just keeps moving along, often faster than we imagined, bringing change. There is a bit of nostalgia for what we've left behind, but also a heightened anticipation for all the joys which lie ahead!
Friday, April 29, 2016
Early Mother's Day...
I had a lovely day. Drove into the city with my husband and ordered new glasses, had brunch at the Black Bear, and did some shopping at the mall. I joked with him about giving me an early Mother's Day gift.
We got home, he disappeared for a while, and brought me a little package. When I opened it there was this...
It's a little pink newborn onesie. I dissolved into tears...
Recently, I learned of a woman who created a memorial stone for the baby she had miscarried. I mentioned it to my husband, because I lost a child through miscarriage many years ago. I knew she was a girl, and we had the name picked out. It was a sad time, but we were blessed just a short time later with our second son, so I have never had a moment of regret for the way things worked out. We were meant to have our EJ! He's been such a blessing and joy in our lives! Even so, I still remember the little one who didn't get to stay with us. I often think about a day when I may meet her again.
My husband remembered our conversation. He had the onesie special ordered, so I'd have something soft and tiny to hold in remembrance of her. Though I could never forget Rachel Leah, it's sweet to have something tangible to hold in my hands. This story tells you all you need to know about the guy I'm married to. He has such a tender, loving heart! I'm blessed to have found him, blessed to be the mother of our two sons, and of the daughter we'll see again one day.
We got home, he disappeared for a while, and brought me a little package. When I opened it there was this...
It's a little pink newborn onesie. I dissolved into tears...
Recently, I learned of a woman who created a memorial stone for the baby she had miscarried. I mentioned it to my husband, because I lost a child through miscarriage many years ago. I knew she was a girl, and we had the name picked out. It was a sad time, but we were blessed just a short time later with our second son, so I have never had a moment of regret for the way things worked out. We were meant to have our EJ! He's been such a blessing and joy in our lives! Even so, I still remember the little one who didn't get to stay with us. I often think about a day when I may meet her again.
My husband remembered our conversation. He had the onesie special ordered, so I'd have something soft and tiny to hold in remembrance of her. Though I could never forget Rachel Leah, it's sweet to have something tangible to hold in my hands. This story tells you all you need to know about the guy I'm married to. He has such a tender, loving heart! I'm blessed to have found him, blessed to be the mother of our two sons, and of the daughter we'll see again one day.
Thursday, April 28, 2016
A Few of My Favorite Things...
The previous post was looking at a dark, scary part of life. Today I wanted to think of things which make me smile. Here are a few to begin with.
Angels... Butterflys... Columbines... Doilies... Echos... Fairies... Grandmothers... Hands... Imagination... Jam... Kites... Lilacs... Mysteries... Novels... October... Poetry... Quilts... Roses... Stars... Trees... Umbrellas... Violets... Windows... XXX's... Yarn... Zebras...
This is my alphabetical favorites list for today. There are so many little things in life to enjoy. Things to lift the spirit, to smile about. It's worth taking a moment each day to look for them.
Angels... Butterflys... Columbines... Doilies... Echos... Fairies... Grandmothers... Hands... Imagination... Jam... Kites... Lilacs... Mysteries... Novels... October... Poetry... Quilts... Roses... Stars... Trees... Umbrellas... Violets... Windows... XXX's... Yarn... Zebras...
This is my alphabetical favorites list for today. There are so many little things in life to enjoy. Things to lift the spirit, to smile about. It's worth taking a moment each day to look for them.
Tuesday, April 26, 2016
Silent Scream...
You can't hear it, but if you're paying close attention, it's palpable.
It reverberates down the cluttered hallway into the darkness.
It seeps under the closed, locked door, rising to the ceiling.
Looking for escape. For light. For air.
There is no music, only the sharp pitch growing, filling any open space.
Until inside, there is only one sound. Silence.
© 26Apr2016 ajj
Note: This is a work in progress, based on a battle with mental illness. Sometimes we can't hear those around us, even though they are screaming inside themselves, until it's too late.
It reverberates down the cluttered hallway into the darkness.
It seeps under the closed, locked door, rising to the ceiling.
Looking for escape. For light. For air.
There is no music, only the sharp pitch growing, filling any open space.
Until inside, there is only one sound. Silence.
© 26Apr2016 ajj
Note: This is a work in progress, based on a battle with mental illness. Sometimes we can't hear those around us, even though they are screaming inside themselves, until it's too late.
Wednesday, April 13, 2016
Feelings...
I don't even know what I want to write about. My mind is so wrapped up in things I must do, I'm not finding time for things I dream of doing. While I sit here typing, I'm listening to an episode of The Voice from a few nights ago. There are some amazing singers this season. They're singing some of my old favorites, opening up emotions I haven't felt in a long while.
There's nothing like music to take you swiftly back in time. It's 1977. I can almost feel the hot summer air, smell the fresh cut grass and the fading roses. Life seemed like it stretched before me in a beautiful, endless road. While the road looks different to me, all these years later, it's still filled with beauty.
© 13Apr2016 ajj
There's nothing like music to take you swiftly back in time. It's 1977. I can almost feel the hot summer air, smell the fresh cut grass and the fading roses. Life seemed like it stretched before me in a beautiful, endless road. While the road looks different to me, all these years later, it's still filled with beauty.
© 13Apr2016 ajj
Tuesday, April 12, 2016
Photographs and Memories...
For the past few days, I've been going through multiple albums and boxes of photographs in preparation for EJ's upcoming graduation. So many memories have washed over me. It's been a roller coaster of tears and laughter.
If you've read my blog, you already know I've become an avid seeker for my distant ancestors. Looking through our family photos reminded me, I need to be documenting my more recent family members so the work will already be done. For the photos I've already scanned into my computer, I'm labeling them with names, location, and dates. Any interesting story, to go along with a photo, will be typed into a separate document. I'm guessing I have enough work ahead of me to keep me busy for the next couple years, if not more!
One special little project I want to do, is to create a photo journal of mom's home decor. She took a lot of snapshots of redecorated rooms, dining tables set for holidays, etc. Mom had an eye for design. She loved shopping thrift stores, flea markets, and yard sales. She was doing DIY before it became a thing. She knew how to reuse and repurpose. She loved the search, and she loved change. A good lesson for me. See things with new eyes. Embrace change.
As I move forward, I'm reminded I need to treasure the past, but not forget to cherish each new day and the people who are part of my days.
© 12Apr2016 ajj
If you've read my blog, you already know I've become an avid seeker for my distant ancestors. Looking through our family photos reminded me, I need to be documenting my more recent family members so the work will already be done. For the photos I've already scanned into my computer, I'm labeling them with names, location, and dates. Any interesting story, to go along with a photo, will be typed into a separate document. I'm guessing I have enough work ahead of me to keep me busy for the next couple years, if not more!
One special little project I want to do, is to create a photo journal of mom's home decor. She took a lot of snapshots of redecorated rooms, dining tables set for holidays, etc. Mom had an eye for design. She loved shopping thrift stores, flea markets, and yard sales. She was doing DIY before it became a thing. She knew how to reuse and repurpose. She loved the search, and she loved change. A good lesson for me. See things with new eyes. Embrace change.
As I move forward, I'm reminded I need to treasure the past, but not forget to cherish each new day and the people who are part of my days.
© 12Apr2016 ajj
Saturday, April 9, 2016
Beautiful Day...
It has been a lovely Saturday. I spent some time chatting with my oldest son about school, movies, life, etc. I edited photos for my youngest son's upcoming college graduation. Laundry is finished and put away. Checked Facebook, but nothing too interesting there. Read a couple chapters in the current novel I'm reading. Now here I am, following through on writing a few words each day.
Yesterday, I discovered we have ducks nesting in the front flower bed again. Oh dear! I was hoping they would find a less "high traffic" place to do this. The road behind us, which they have to cross with their ducklings, is now four lanes instead of two. I don't even want to think about it...
Last evening, my oldest son had his dad and me watch the most recent Star Wars movie. It was so good! It took me back to when I saw the original back in 1977! Action, humor, surprises! I was shocked at the loss of one of my favorites, but I will refrain from naming them. I'm sure I'm not the only one who hadn't seen this movie yet, and I'd hate to post a spoiler. For me, the Star Wars magic was finally back, and I'm looking forward to seeing what else they may have in store for us!
Yesterday, I discovered we have ducks nesting in the front flower bed again. Oh dear! I was hoping they would find a less "high traffic" place to do this. The road behind us, which they have to cross with their ducklings, is now four lanes instead of two. I don't even want to think about it...
Last evening, my oldest son had his dad and me watch the most recent Star Wars movie. It was so good! It took me back to when I saw the original back in 1977! Action, humor, surprises! I was shocked at the loss of one of my favorites, but I will refrain from naming them. I'm sure I'm not the only one who hadn't seen this movie yet, and I'd hate to post a spoiler. For me, the Star Wars magic was finally back, and I'm looking forward to seeing what else they may have in store for us!
Wednesday, April 6, 2016
Oops... It's Poetry Month...
First of all, how did April get here so fast? I was going to have some new poems written, or have some favorite poems and poets picked out, to grace my blog for the month. Did not get any of it done. I'll try to get some up by first of next week.
My mind is swirling with all the things I need to accomplish in the next 6 weeks. My youngest, EJ, is graduating from college! I didn't even think to get a formal photo done. I really stink at these kinds of things. He didn't think of it either... nut...tree... you get it, so he took a selfie for the college yearbook photo. That's how we roll! Haha!
I'm trying to pull together a plan for celebrating this wonderful milestone in his life, choose the venue, get announcements quickly ordered, and figure out how to make myself look at least 40 lbs. slimmer for the expected family photos... just a tiny miracle or two will be needed to pull it all off! Thankfully, EJ is a very laid back fellow and really doesn't want a big party. Something simple, with only the closest friends and family. It still raises my anxiety a bit, but in a good way. I'm really looking forward to this next step in his life's journey!
My mind is swirling with all the things I need to accomplish in the next 6 weeks. My youngest, EJ, is graduating from college! I didn't even think to get a formal photo done. I really stink at these kinds of things. He didn't think of it either... nut...tree... you get it, so he took a selfie for the college yearbook photo. That's how we roll! Haha!
I'm trying to pull together a plan for celebrating this wonderful milestone in his life, choose the venue, get announcements quickly ordered, and figure out how to make myself look at least 40 lbs. slimmer for the expected family photos... just a tiny miracle or two will be needed to pull it all off! Thankfully, EJ is a very laid back fellow and really doesn't want a big party. Something simple, with only the closest friends and family. It still raises my anxiety a bit, but in a good way. I'm really looking forward to this next step in his life's journey!
Monday, April 4, 2016
Write Something...
I've been telling myself to write something. Anything at all. I need the discipline of forcing myself to write when I'm not feeling inspired, because those moments of inspiration don't come along all that often.
Working on the craft of writing is the thing I haven't done well. I have a head filled with great stories and ideas which may never make it to paper or print due to a lack of discipline. I'm also feeling my age. Some will say it's past time to do this or that. I'm standing on the belief, it's never too late to begin again, or even start something brand new! I feel lighter inside at the possibilities still out there!
© 04Apr2016 ajj
Working on the craft of writing is the thing I haven't done well. I have a head filled with great stories and ideas which may never make it to paper or print due to a lack of discipline. I'm also feeling my age. Some will say it's past time to do this or that. I'm standing on the belief, it's never too late to begin again, or even start something brand new! I feel lighter inside at the possibilities still out there!
© 04Apr2016 ajj
Sunday, April 3, 2016
Favorite Things...
A few of my favorite things...
These things, and many more, make me happy. It feels good to think of simple pleasures and set aside thoughts of the craziness going on in the world around me. I am choosing to seek for what brings me happiness and joy. I know there will be dark days and some things I may have to think about and deal with, but when possible, I will be looking for the bright moments. The simple joys in life.
- Flowers, especially hyacinths, tulips, lilacs
- Mystery books and programs
- Music of all kinds
- Magazines like Victoria, Better Homes and Gardens, Country Living
- Pretty, vintage linens, lace, and doilies
- Old family photographs
- Playing games like Scrabble, Dominoes, and Trivial Pursuit
- Vintage dolls and toys
These things, and many more, make me happy. It feels good to think of simple pleasures and set aside thoughts of the craziness going on in the world around me. I am choosing to seek for what brings me happiness and joy. I know there will be dark days and some things I may have to think about and deal with, but when possible, I will be looking for the bright moments. The simple joys in life.
Tuesday, March 22, 2016
A Few Brief Thoughts...
I don't have a lot to share, but I wanted to list some random thoughts...
It's mom's birthday, as always I'm thinking of her and remembering her with love.
I'm enjoying having both sons here for spring break. They bring so much laughter and fun into our lives. They are each such a gift and blessing to me.
My hyacinths have blossomed. They always smell so sweet! Some of the tulips have bloomed as well.
Spent yesterday with my little sis. Out to breakfast, and on to the Antique Mall to purchase more family photos. Then we wandered, just looking at all the other fun things for sale. I bought a Kenyan hand carved stone egg for $4.00, just in time to add it to my Easter decorations.
We had a whopper of a thunderstorm yesterday. Rain pelted the house, then turned into hail for a bit, wind roared, lightening striking all around. March has been mild this year, but yesterday it was a lion!
I'm getting ready to watch an episode of The Voice which I recorded earlier. I've been avoiding all the news of the world. I just needed a little oasis of peace today. Music always soothes the soul.
Wishing you Peace, sprinkled with a huge dose of Joy!
It's mom's birthday, as always I'm thinking of her and remembering her with love.
I'm enjoying having both sons here for spring break. They bring so much laughter and fun into our lives. They are each such a gift and blessing to me.
My hyacinths have blossomed. They always smell so sweet! Some of the tulips have bloomed as well.
Spent yesterday with my little sis. Out to breakfast, and on to the Antique Mall to purchase more family photos. Then we wandered, just looking at all the other fun things for sale. I bought a Kenyan hand carved stone egg for $4.00, just in time to add it to my Easter decorations.
We had a whopper of a thunderstorm yesterday. Rain pelted the house, then turned into hail for a bit, wind roared, lightening striking all around. March has been mild this year, but yesterday it was a lion!
I'm getting ready to watch an episode of The Voice which I recorded earlier. I've been avoiding all the news of the world. I just needed a little oasis of peace today. Music always soothes the soul.
Wishing you Peace, sprinkled with a huge dose of Joy!
Saturday, March 5, 2016
What Is Going On...
I was so certain I'd posted about a week ago. Before that, I'd somehow locked myself out of my Blogger and Google accounts. Is this a foretelling of things to come? I certainly hope not!
Things at my home are much the same. I've still been working my way through some old family negatives I purchased at an antique store. A lot are blurry, or just boring, as most family photos are. Occasionally, I'm finding a little treasure! I remember seeing a few photos of my grandmother which were owned by another relative. There was never much hope of getting copies, but I now have the negatives! I was so thrilled!
These pictures would not have been important to anyone but a child or grandchild, and it's a miracle they weren't tossed into the trash by the dealer. They aren't unique, my grandma holding her first grandchild, a graduation, a family trip; nothing of value to anyone except family. It makes me want to go through my own photos and negatives, to consider whether there are any which would mean something to other family members or even friends. If you're like me, you probably have hundreds of photos. Mine are mostly stored in photo boxes and many have not been viewed in a long, long time. Organizing my own photos is my next big project.
Unless I do something silly, like locking myself out of blogger again, I'll be back very soon! Wishing you a beautiful day!
Things at my home are much the same. I've still been working my way through some old family negatives I purchased at an antique store. A lot are blurry, or just boring, as most family photos are. Occasionally, I'm finding a little treasure! I remember seeing a few photos of my grandmother which were owned by another relative. There was never much hope of getting copies, but I now have the negatives! I was so thrilled!
These pictures would not have been important to anyone but a child or grandchild, and it's a miracle they weren't tossed into the trash by the dealer. They aren't unique, my grandma holding her first grandchild, a graduation, a family trip; nothing of value to anyone except family. It makes me want to go through my own photos and negatives, to consider whether there are any which would mean something to other family members or even friends. If you're like me, you probably have hundreds of photos. Mine are mostly stored in photo boxes and many have not been viewed in a long, long time. Organizing my own photos is my next big project.
Unless I do something silly, like locking myself out of blogger again, I'll be back very soon! Wishing you a beautiful day!
Saturday, February 6, 2016
Early Spring...
I've been so busy recently. Took my sis to breakfast and to the Antique Mall last weekend. It was such a fun morning. Shared recent news and reminisced over old family stories. We scored some more family photos at the mall! In one lot, there was my own wedding photo which I'd given a great aunt and uncle. You just never know what you'll find when you go treasure hunting. Does that mean my sweetheart and I are now antiques? Or at least very collectible?
My youngest was on his break between winter session and spring semester. It was very nice having him home. I know the days of him hanging out with us may be very short. He graduates from college this year, and who knows where his future will take him. My mom heart is praying he gets a fantastic job, but just not too far away. That's reasonable, right?
Last evening we went to dinner at Red Robin, with two of our best friends. I tried their french dip with grilled onions. Oh my, it was so good! I've found a new favorite! Afterward, we went back to their home and played Dominoes. We had so many laughs. It was a wonderful time.
I've spent part of today scanning old negatives onto my computer. It's a long-term project which I started two or three years ago. It's very time consuming, but will be worth it to have our photos backed up on computer and in "the cloud" wherever that really is.
It feels like an early spring really is in store this year. I am definitely ready for it. Spring is already in my heart today!
© 06Feb2016 ajj
My youngest was on his break between winter session and spring semester. It was very nice having him home. I know the days of him hanging out with us may be very short. He graduates from college this year, and who knows where his future will take him. My mom heart is praying he gets a fantastic job, but just not too far away. That's reasonable, right?
Last evening we went to dinner at Red Robin, with two of our best friends. I tried their french dip with grilled onions. Oh my, it was so good! I've found a new favorite! Afterward, we went back to their home and played Dominoes. We had so many laughs. It was a wonderful time.
I've spent part of today scanning old negatives onto my computer. It's a long-term project which I started two or three years ago. It's very time consuming, but will be worth it to have our photos backed up on computer and in "the cloud" wherever that really is.
It feels like an early spring really is in store this year. I am definitely ready for it. Spring is already in my heart today!
© 06Feb2016 ajj
Tuesday, January 26, 2016
Keeping the Memories...
My imagination has been such an active part of who I am. I'm fascinated by what may come. What could happen? What will happen? The past has always called to me as well. I've imagined hundreds of different lives and wondered what it would have been like to be one of those interesting women.
In recent years, I turned that imagination about the past into actual research about my own ancestors. It's been fulfilling and fun. There's still so much I haven't been able to uncover, so my search continues.
My home is filled with bits and pieces of memories. I've been reluctant to part with items which trigger such strong imagery and feelings, but I've done quite a bit of parting over the past year or two. Yesterday I began going through some boxes of things. Odd assortments of photographs, vintage valentines, jewelry, knickknacks... junk to many, treasure to me. I still find it hard to separate the memories and the imaginings from the items. Is this what triggers all other keepers of things? Those labeled hoarders. Those disdained by the very neat and tidy masses? Thankfully, for me, it's not food or animals, but it's a wild assortment of so many other things.
My mama saved my first grade artwork, my dresses, shoes, even books which were left behind when I was sent to live with grandma and grandpa. She tucked them away in old suitcases and boxes, saving them for a day when we could look at them together and share a laugh and a memory. I don't know why I'm saving her treasures. I'll never get to sit with her, holding one in my hand and say, "Remember when..." or hear her giggle over any of it. When I do hold one of these things, I am transported back in a way nothing else can do. I'm there again, and she is with me, and my world seems a little more complete.
© 26Jan2016 ajj
In recent years, I turned that imagination about the past into actual research about my own ancestors. It's been fulfilling and fun. There's still so much I haven't been able to uncover, so my search continues.
My home is filled with bits and pieces of memories. I've been reluctant to part with items which trigger such strong imagery and feelings, but I've done quite a bit of parting over the past year or two. Yesterday I began going through some boxes of things. Odd assortments of photographs, vintage valentines, jewelry, knickknacks... junk to many, treasure to me. I still find it hard to separate the memories and the imaginings from the items. Is this what triggers all other keepers of things? Those labeled hoarders. Those disdained by the very neat and tidy masses? Thankfully, for me, it's not food or animals, but it's a wild assortment of so many other things.
My mama saved my first grade artwork, my dresses, shoes, even books which were left behind when I was sent to live with grandma and grandpa. She tucked them away in old suitcases and boxes, saving them for a day when we could look at them together and share a laugh and a memory. I don't know why I'm saving her treasures. I'll never get to sit with her, holding one in my hand and say, "Remember when..." or hear her giggle over any of it. When I do hold one of these things, I am transported back in a way nothing else can do. I'm there again, and she is with me, and my world seems a little more complete.
© 26Jan2016 ajj
Monday, January 25, 2016
Poem for This Day...
I will not be dissuaded from hope.
I will get up when I've fallen. Every time.
Step by step, pushing my limits. Spiritual, physical, emotional.
If I suffer loss, it will not beat me down.
Roll, roll, roll with the punches.
Rise, rise, rise again. And again!
Not to just survive. To overcome!
I will not be dissuaded!
© 25Jan2016 ajj
I will get up when I've fallen. Every time.
Step by step, pushing my limits. Spiritual, physical, emotional.
If I suffer loss, it will not beat me down.
Roll, roll, roll with the punches.
Rise, rise, rise again. And again!
Not to just survive. To overcome!
I will not be dissuaded!
© 25Jan2016 ajj
Thursday, January 21, 2016
Daydreams...
There was a time, a long while back, when I dreamed of living on an acreage with plenty of space. Far from people, filled with animals of all kinds. Maybe a log home or an old two story farmhouse with a big red barn. I would have a huge room with a grand piano and floor to ceiling bookshelves...
These days I dream of a Paris or New York apartment with all the amenities or a little cottage near the Oregon Coast. The dream mainly requires I must be close to restaurants and shops, especially cozy book stores. I will have at least one cat and maybe a little dog.
I'll wear hats. I've never worn hats much, because I was told I didn't have the head for them. Maybe I don't, but why should that stop me? I'll wear expensive perfume and silky scarves, but I won't wear make-up ever, unless the mood should strike. I'll say exactly what I think, without feeling like I must apologize for my opinion. I will stop wondering why this old friend, or that other one, never calls anymore. My address and phone books will reflect those who maintain connections. All a person really needs is the love and friendship of a few true friends, and the love of their life partner and children, of course.
I'll write my truth. In writing it, I'll try to be kind, but even if the truth is unkind it may have to be written. I saw a quote somewhere... if you didn't want it written about you, you should have behaved better... something to that effect. Oh my, the things which could be written about me. Things which may well be cruel, seen in print. I have to remember every truth is tempered by circumstance, what we knew then, what was the trigger, and how we addressed it or changed from it.
So, the dreams... new location; simpler life; be myself; hold those who love me close, and let the rest go; be honest, tempered with kindness; accept my truths and my failings, but don't linger there; read; write; and pets... yes, I must have pets!
© 21Jan2016 ajj
These days I dream of a Paris or New York apartment with all the amenities or a little cottage near the Oregon Coast. The dream mainly requires I must be close to restaurants and shops, especially cozy book stores. I will have at least one cat and maybe a little dog.
I'll wear hats. I've never worn hats much, because I was told I didn't have the head for them. Maybe I don't, but why should that stop me? I'll wear expensive perfume and silky scarves, but I won't wear make-up ever, unless the mood should strike. I'll say exactly what I think, without feeling like I must apologize for my opinion. I will stop wondering why this old friend, or that other one, never calls anymore. My address and phone books will reflect those who maintain connections. All a person really needs is the love and friendship of a few true friends, and the love of their life partner and children, of course.
I'll write my truth. In writing it, I'll try to be kind, but even if the truth is unkind it may have to be written. I saw a quote somewhere... if you didn't want it written about you, you should have behaved better... something to that effect. Oh my, the things which could be written about me. Things which may well be cruel, seen in print. I have to remember every truth is tempered by circumstance, what we knew then, what was the trigger, and how we addressed it or changed from it.
So, the dreams... new location; simpler life; be myself; hold those who love me close, and let the rest go; be honest, tempered with kindness; accept my truths and my failings, but don't linger there; read; write; and pets... yes, I must have pets!
© 21Jan2016 ajj
Tuesday, January 19, 2016
Friend Connect...
I've still been using Google Friend Connect, and just spotted an update which says it's really going away for blogger. I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to follow my favorite blogs. I need to make a master list, I guess, and try to check in now and then. I feel like I'm slipping quickly behind on technology changes. I'll have to ask my sons if they have any recommendations.
My "joy" theme is struggling a bit today. I've been too preoccupied with computer issues to find my moment. I'm getting ready to head out to the mailbox, maybe there will be a surprise waiting for me. I feel a little "joy twinge" just thinking about that!
Until tomorrow...
My "joy" theme is struggling a bit today. I've been too preoccupied with computer issues to find my moment. I'm getting ready to head out to the mailbox, maybe there will be a surprise waiting for me. I feel a little "joy twinge" just thinking about that!
Until tomorrow...
Sunday, January 17, 2016
While Searching for Joy...
A new focus for this year, is to seek joy. I believe it can be found in all the moments of our lives. Joy isn't a mood, it's a state of being.
A little bit ago, the James Galway version of Somewhere Out There began to play. There was a time when any version of this song immediately reduced me to tears. It was a favorite of my mothers. She requested it to be sung by one of her grandchildren at her memorial service, but in the overwhelming planning of it, I forgot until some months later. After she passed, the song would evoke so much sadness I couldn't listen to it without weeping. I didn't see the joy in her choice. It took me a long time to realize it was mom's message of comfort to us, that she would still be "somewhere out there" and loving us just the same, as she always had. There's joy in believing that, in knowing her love crosses all barriers between her former life here and the new life she is now part of.
I'm still learning to look for the joy in every situation. It isn't always easy, but it can be found when we open our hearts and our minds to it.
As always, wishing you Joy!
© 17Jan2016 ajj
A little bit ago, the James Galway version of Somewhere Out There began to play. There was a time when any version of this song immediately reduced me to tears. It was a favorite of my mothers. She requested it to be sung by one of her grandchildren at her memorial service, but in the overwhelming planning of it, I forgot until some months later. After she passed, the song would evoke so much sadness I couldn't listen to it without weeping. I didn't see the joy in her choice. It took me a long time to realize it was mom's message of comfort to us, that she would still be "somewhere out there" and loving us just the same, as she always had. There's joy in believing that, in knowing her love crosses all barriers between her former life here and the new life she is now part of.
I'm still learning to look for the joy in every situation. It isn't always easy, but it can be found when we open our hearts and our minds to it.
As always, wishing you Joy!
© 17Jan2016 ajj
Saturday, January 16, 2016
My Thought for Today...
Life sometimes gets rough. We're left wondering why, and we are often left without answers. Once in a while the answers are right there waiting to be found.
In the midst of suffering, a new revelation may appear; in the midst of pain, healing may be happening; in the midst of loss, hope can be found. Loving the word "midst" today! I'm looking for JOY, because if you seek it, you will find it in the most surprising places!
Wishing each of you a large measure of JOY today!
© 16Jan2016 ajj
In the midst of suffering, a new revelation may appear; in the midst of pain, healing may be happening; in the midst of loss, hope can be found. Loving the word "midst" today! I'm looking for JOY, because if you seek it, you will find it in the most surprising places!
Wishing each of you a large measure of JOY today!
© 16Jan2016 ajj
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